Our Cycle…

Did I scare some of you off? Whelp, keep reading, I promise it won’t get too interesting for even a 3 year-old to hear. Our cycle… not our motorcycle, bicycle, tricycle, Popsicle (ok, that’s a stretch), or even a woman’s ‘monthly cycle’… but… the deployment cycle.

We honestly don’t know why deployment has a ‘cycle’, it’s much more like a roller coaster! But, it is upon us once again. Last time, we had been married just 3 months when we received official word, 8 months by the time he left home, and 11 months by the time he left country. Many a season has come and gone since then… we’ve moved, bought a house, got a dog, renovated aforementioned house into our home, been blessed with 2 amazing kiddos, said good-bye to (seemingly too) many friends as they joined Jesus, career changes galore, all the while being filled more and more with God’s light and glory.

But, I digress… we’re officially in the deployment cycle again. It’s going to be ok, really (or so I keep meditating on). We just feel like our understanding is at square one with this cycle (once again)… kids change everything. As much as this cycle could disappear into a cloud of smoke at nearly anytime between now and ‘boots on ground’, we know one thing – we have to prepare like there will be ‘boots on ground’. Prepare our hearts, minds, bodies, home, children, family, friends, dog, seemingly our world, to be separated by time and space but NOT to be separated from Christ.

My ‘sisters’ in Bible studies have been bombarded by my mentioning the impact that Psalm 139 has had on my journey since June. So, once again… I find comfort in the whole but also specifically the following:

16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
        all the days ordained for me were written in your book
        before one of them came to be.

23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
        test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
        and lead me in the way everlasting.

In the end, here we go. Basics to put on the record of THIS deployment cycle: married 7 years, 1 dog, 3 year old daughter, 16 month old son. Not going to try to hide it… I may need a bit more of God’s oil for my ray of light and that may mean I borrow from those near and dear every now and again. And, despite all of these realities, there is one that shines brighter – God’s glory and plan.

Jeremiah 29:11

In His Love & Light,


His Lighthouse’s Simple Beam

A song has been on my heart, in my soul, and reverberating through my mind for a few months now: “My Lighthouse” by Ireland’s Rend Collective.

Really, just a blurb on this. If our Father God is our lighthouse and the true source of light who equips each of us with a purpose to bring others to Him, then aren’t we yet a simple beam of the lighthouse’s lantern?!

As a simple beam of this lantern in His lighthouse we are called to continually shine, in all circumstances (and for a lighthouse, especially in the raging storms). No, we don’t have to plaster a smile on our face and it won’t always be easy to shine His light. Nor do we have to provide the oil to maintain our beam of light but rather grow in dependence on Him. And, this makes me think that we must be in constant check to see if our wicks are long enough to reach Him, the source of oil, especially when wading through a storm.

Consider an excerpt from Psalm 84 (NIV):

5 Blessed are those whose strength is in you,
who have set their hearts on pilgrimage.
6 As they pass through the Valley of Baca,
they make it a place of springs;
the autumn rains also cover it with pools.
7 They go from strength to strength,
till each appears before God in Zion.

Now ponder a snippet of insight surrounding these three verses from my Life Application Study Bible: “No specific valley has been identified with Baca. Because Baca can mean “weeping,” it may have been a symbolic reference to the times of struggles and tears through which people must pass on their way to meet God.”

Turning to Him amidst your “Valley of Baca” ensures your wick is long enough to reach the oil and enable you to continue to shine! Let Him be your caretaker and oil and in-turn be a simple beam of His lighthouse through calm days and raging storms. May our wicks be long enough to reach Him at ALL times.

P.S. I really must applaud God for the talents he gave to Rend Collective and their entire staff (recording, video, you name it)! What well-balanced and dare I say, much appreciated, unconventional to main-stream instrumentation. Not to mention the creative and outside-of-comfort zone set for the video!

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